....i decided to do this blog thing as i wanna express myself better(duhhh...) .... i guess loneliness really have taken it's toll on me. like if i dont do something bout it, i might explode.............
my exam result is like so-so only... i feel sort of down in these couple of days... i dont wanna flunk my exam...i guess my my effort is not good enough and is not my rezeki. sabar and tawakal. i know my parents will be so mad right after they know my result....(sob sob). Allah the almighty god, maha pengasih and penyayang...i pray to u as a humble servant to guide me and to show me the way for keredhaanmu. give me strength to walk this winding road of my life. amin....
medical skool......why do i even chosed medic in the 1st place..?? that question have been like a major issue for me lately.. i'm not an excellence student even during my skool years wearing stupid prefect uniform. a suam2 kuku student, not so clever, nor popular, neither a good one.. still haven't forgot my hostel warden caught me fly without permission, then i was reffered to the principal..... i slept (like thousands time) in the discussion room during morning skool assembly (boring ah assembly!).... if there was a wall of shame in my skool ... my mugshot photo would be upthere,seriously.. i wonder how a lousy student like me ended up doing medicine and obtain scholarship from the govrnment. i guess it's my parent's doa and blessing that lead me to what i'm doing now....i thank and pray to Allah for the rezeki. Alhamdulillah.....my destiny..qada and qadar-Nya... who am i to question His power...
nowadays..i've always been looking at my bedroom wall. there are 3 pictures of my newborn nephew and also got my mok ('mom' in terengganu..i'm proud of my heritage..) in one of the pic. adam harith bin kamal hafezi....a gift and rahmat from Allah. the lil' guy is so cute and look so much like his daddy..( congratz pizi...it shows that ur genetic passing is really strong...haha). a close-up pic of him, a pic where he's naturally posed like john travolta in saturday nite fever (cool lil' dude eh?), and a pic of my mok feeding him susu botol.... somehow it affects the motherhood instinct in me... yeah u can laugh bout it... but it's so real to me.. creating a life that's so beautiful...i mean it's truly beautiful... u know what i'm talking bout la kan... hopefully i'll also create the same wonderful miracle. amin.... now...who wants to marry me..??? hehehehe...
that's all for now...chow..!
